sweet surprises

Life can be full of surprises that take many forms. It can be a big surprise or tiny ones.. it can be:
-filled with happiness
-a shock
-accompanied with grief & anger

Love is not exclusive, on the contrary, love contributes 3/4 of the total surprises in one's lifetime, i felt.

Surprise No. 1: S, 21 Feb 09

We dined at Yoshi. He said that he was influenced by me. He used to hate chilli but there he was adding chilli flakes to his ebi tempura meal.

Of course, I asked him why, told him that he dun have to do this, I mean dun hurt urself just to compliment my likes. And i dun need you to change anything for me, be urself, cause I love you for who you are.

He said... there were many first times for him in our relationship, all were pleasant experiences, like walking at the beach with someone, going to the botanic gardens..

These were nothings to me, as in, I dun think anyone would not have walked at the beach with someone... but to him, it's like as if he has found treasures.

Thereafter, he believes in trying what i think is nice. (Erm.. am I right? This was written based on my failing memory).

This knowledge came as a sweet surprise that warmed my heart wholly. I would not have known that I have the ability to open doors in your heart.


Surprise No. 2: Blog

You read my blog.

I always thought that you will only do so when I told you to. Surprised me when you said you read it every so often. Well.... not that i write fantastic stuffs, but every word was from my heart. I din think anyone would bother....

thanks baby.

Surprise No. 3: Alarm

As I was writing this, he called. After a long day at work, despite being tired, he set his alarm just to remind me it's time for bed.

How can I love you enough, my dear.

If I were to give you a gift, it's going to be my time, a lifetime loving you and being there for you.


There they are, 3 surprises in a short span of 3 days. But again, it all depends on your point of view. If surprises only comes in the form of materials to you, all of the above would mean nothin.

To me at least, these were impt and heartfelt moments. They are bits and pieces that form the complete picture. I have neva felt the importance of my existance, till now, that I found you.

busy busy busy

Today is my ever busiest day... t-down and t-down and more t-down, wat de!

Woke up late.

Endless T-downs.

With a wound that's still bleeding.

Filtering here and there, send papers, send laptops...

And 3hrs of OT.

Goodness, wat a day! But yet such day could be fulfilling, a busy day on the contrary moves on fast, a slack day moves like it's taking forever.

And of course, a busy day is also a highly stressful one. There's no one to help out, pple can talk about their holiday trip, this and that, goes back on time, has a few months to rest before looking at that stupid T-down again, and me? Faithfully coming back on tues thou supposed to be on mc and faithfully done up the T-down by every Wed for Feb... so what's the gift? 2 more weeks of T-down because I have been on mc, fairness you would say! Zero appreciation!

If I had known, I would have gladly take the mc and not even goes back to work, then perhaps my wound would have healed by now.

There's a saying goes... 对别人人慈，就是对自己残忍. Yes, it sounds damn crude! But I should have known.

Ar, enuff of the bitterness, look at the bright side of life... More T-down means more practice, and more practice means more experiences! Experiences in? Being a better puppet!


Luckily.. there's you. If not, my day would be worst. At least when I walked out of that horrifying place, you were there with the most embracing hug. And we had a ultra full meal. A hungry man is an angry man, a man with his hunger satisfied, is a happy man. Yes, all is gone, tmr is a better day, of course, cause it's my off day!


Ta!

How's life now?

Well, it has been a superbly long time.

Begin to wonder why do pple blog? Why do pple announce to the world what's of their daily activity and why did the vice verse works (ie. why will you be interested in looking at other's blog)? Why did the use-to-be so secretly kept diary goes online for all to see?

Erm... perhaps curiosity kills the cat? I admit that it can be fun at times to see others' perception of life, how's their recent activity, what's in and out...blah blah blah. But I guess mine could be a tad boring...

There's nothin much that goes on.. except for my love, my family & the most dreading work! Oh well, since it's the so-called Valentine lovey dovey month, I shall leave the work part aside and tribute my worthless little post to my loved ones.

My love and my family are my greatest support. I cant imagine the world without them thou at times, i really do believe that i can survive alone.

He's always there for me, tolerating me and my unreasonable times, loving my flaws, accepting me as I am, waiting for me may it be "give me five or twenty", flashing the mega watt smile whenever I'm down, appreciating me, lightening my load physically and mentally, walking side with me & hold me up when i fall. How did I come so far without you? It is as if I was made for the purpose to love you.

We share countless similarities not to mention with my high wavelength, and long antenna, the countless hits on telepathy.. haha!

By saying 3 times means I mean it - I love you, I love you, I love you.

And yes, I really do.. It has been like 7 months my dear... time has passed so fast that I neva seems to get enuff of you. Cuddling in your arms or lying on your shoulder freezes the time and the world.

Oh! How can I forget... thanks for looking up into the sky with me...and loving my family.

As to my family... well, I must admit things hasn't been really the same after granny and uncle departed. Festivals are always filled with a tinge of sadness - 每逢佳节， 倍思亲, though we still practice the usual gathering. Some seems to be apart and distance despite of their presence. Yes, everyone has their own circle, own life, own immediate family... but not everyone could have such a closely knitted cluster family (sisters, brothers, in laws, cousins, uncles, aunties). Pple whom I've spoken to were often envy of me. Little do they know how much fear i felt that ties would fall apart. Everyone seems to move on fast, would we still gather 5, 10, 20 years down the road? I would not exchange anything for this family and my promise to granny, will you? I would always remember what his mum said, "家和万事兴", nothing can pose to be a problem, as long as a family stays united.

I still miss granny... a lot, but I believe she's happy now, free from all the sufferings of this physical world.