why is life so unfair

It's every so often that I find myself asking this question: why is life so unfair?

The more I asked, the more I pacify myself to stop asking, treasure what I have and instead of comparing with the great and mighty, I should see myself being lucky, at least I am fed and clothed, but the more I felt frustrated and unjust. It's easy to say than to actually take in the thoughts.

Religions believers will tell you that it is the karma from your last life that decide how your life now is, wealthy or poor, happy or upset, healthy or sickly. Isn't that already unfair? I hate circumstances like this, whereby you have no control to change anything. Punishment should be right on the spot, and not wait till next life or later. Similarly, if there is anything unhappy about what I did, I would wish to be told right on the spot, at least I could choose and make a choice there and then to correct the mistake, rather than to be told eons later, after numerous of the similar mistakes have been made, and at a point whereby apology seems redundant, and regret stays in your heart. Or have I mistaken? Regret is the supposing punishment.

And I am suppose to incur good deeds this life so that my next will be better, then again who can tell me if this is confirmed, as in, next life? What and where will I be? I find it hard to work for an empty illusion. Similarly, for afterlife, some said you will be punish and banish to hell for your bad doings. Why then? Why do the bad and evil get their way and wealth now and punish in the mentioned hell later, and the poor to suffer in misery now and perhaps heaven if they have incur enough good deeds?

I have nothing against the religions, it is a set of beliefs set for the followers to follow, and in turns guide their doings, principles and morals, ideally. Obviously, there are plenty out there who claimed to be staunch believers but act differently from what they preached. We are humans, afterall that's why we are still here and not in heaven, har? 

Julie & Julia

I saw a movie today - Julie & Julia.

I had wanted to see it when I first saw the synopsis, but I thought it wasn't much of a guy worthy movie and so I called it off. I love to watch movies with you, and you know that. The mood, the feel, the atmosphere is almost instantly transformed, as if, we were totally in it. You made them come alive. Having someone that enjoys something with you, even if it's only at a point in time, is a joy. It's never as good alone.

Back to the movie, this is what I got from their official website:

It's amazing how captivating the movie is, perhaps, for someone who enjoys cooking, who loves to have a beautiful kitchen, who has a dream to one day, be a cook or a baker.

I get so motivated whenever such a movie or book captures my soul. Sometime, I wished, that life could be as simple as that. How would my movie be?

Love it. Wish you were here.

Mere coincidence I hope.

Something spooky happened today.

We had our photos pinned onto whiteboards. One at his place and one at mine. His has other family photos whereas mine has ours and our baby's.

He called at about 2pm-ish sounding worried. He told me that his whiteboard which has been rested on his table top for weeks fell onto the floor by itself. It slid off the side of the table, which is rather strange. He was worried that it was a bad omen and therefore checked with everyone if they are sound and safe. I reassured him that everything is alright, all the time feeling scare and worried myself.

Then, at 2am-ish, technically the next day (i.e after 12am)...

My whiteboard fell from the wall!

Goodness gracious, it was really scary! First of all, it's late at night, and any loud crash would have made you jump out of bed, then.. of all things hang above ground, the whiteboard fell!

It definitely scare the hell out of me.

I prayed hard that nothing shall happen to you. Especially when you are out at work, at the already dangerous work place without all these spookiness in the air.

I need you, please be careful. God, please help.

Please, may all of these be just mere coincidence and NOT any prophecy or warning to later events.